captivate me
embrace me
entrance me
lure me in
feed me
kiss me
at every whim
love me
hate me
pls don't disgrace me
its solemn
its true
its everything but you.

Why do you harbor so much pain.
Such a fragile soul that talks such a big game.
I know who you are and I love the real you.
Don't do this to yourself darling, all this can only come back to haunt you.
In a world full of choices you can go wherever you choose.
I know you can do it and you do too.
So put down your shield and start anew.
There's so much love that wants to be given to you.
I just hope you see it soon, because to be honest this just isn't you.

Happiness is a Warm Gun

Play your game & I'll play mine.
The only difference is you cant read between my lines.
My shades are drawn, your a master of your art,its all out on the table with you from the start.
All the pain, and hurt, and shame. Please don't even speak my name.
Maybe I deserve everything I get, I just haven't figured out why yet.
So play your game & I'll play mine.
The only difference is you cant read between my lines.
So many nights of unspoken truths, coated with alcohol and spiked with proof.
How much longer can this possibly last, constantly digging up each others past.
We share a weakness you and I, we both want to be loved, but swear its a lie.
So go on play your game & I'll play mine.
The only difference is you can't read between my lines.
This is the final hand I swear its true, after this I'll be completely done with you.
I'll move on to something real, something that I can really feel.
I'm all in and so are you. The verdict is here, I let my shades fall. You call my bluff and get it all.
So play your game & I'll play mine.
The only difference is, you know you'll always be able to read between my lines.

Realism

It's crazy how we can perceive people as being one way when in all actuality they are something entirely different. When did it become necessary to hide your inner self and come across as something entirely different than what you really stand for. Recently I've met a slew of new people, although I have obviously connected more with some over others; overall I had formed a general consensus that all of these people were in good character. After tonight however I feel as though I was put under a great false pretense. Lying, stealing, backstabbing, and outlandish lies; all that I would have never imagined to be real. As crazy as it seems to me I really don't know why I am finding it to be such an unbelievable thing. If you really think about it, what constitutes as a reputable amount of time to say that you really know a person. I can tell you one thing, a matter of months is definitely not it. I have a very selective group of friends and family that I consider to be truer than true to me. Although I consider myself an extremely outgoing person that loves to meet new people, after this tid bit of a wake up call I can honestly say that staying in my "inner circle" so to speak really does not seem the least bit unappealing to me. It takes people years to be able to find out the ins and outs of the people that they are close with, I mean hell we are constantly learning new things about ourselves all the time; how could someone else possibly say that they know us in our entirety. I just don't know; instead of rambling on and on about this I guess what I'm really trying to say is. Keep your friends close, the ones that really matter and the ones that you know will never leave you. Love them, cherish them, never leave their sides no matter what problems or changes may arise in any of your lives. To be able to say that I have a group of friends that I have kept for the last four years and have grown with, shared so many memories both good and bad with and that I we are still all together today happier and stronger than ever; that is something I never want to let go of and I don't think I will.